Some changes are easy......

And some changes are not.

Changing my diet and exercise habits are NOT easy for me.

I wish it was. I wish I could wish away my extra weight. I wish the pounds would just melt away.

But they won't. Arg!

I have a lot of false starts with my weight loss. I wish that would change too.

Yesterday I started a "Biggest Loser" style weight loss challenge at work. I weighed in with a co-worker who was coordinating the competition and I shudder at the fact that she knows my weight! But I trust she won't tell anyone, I hope. So, hopefully this means that I'll develop some serious drive, because that competitive spirit is really inspiring, and I may actually succeed to some degree. Hopefully I'll get some "Stick-to-it-iveness", and finally start reaching my goals!

I have so many incentives.

Feeling healthy.

Feeling energized.

Feeling young.

Feeling delicate.

Feeling feminine.

Feeling capable.

Feeling competent.

Feeling attractive.

Feeling unburdened.

There are so many reasons to stop failing and start succeeding, it's hard to imagine why I've failed over and over, when the pay out to not fail is so good. But some changes are easy and some are hard. Some things are easy in theory and hard in practice. Weight loss seems to elude me. I've done it before in simpler times, but my new and complicated life just doesn't seem to jive with my weight loss aspiration. Its in my hands, I know it, but without some major motivation and fuel, I won't do a thing for myself. I never do. But now I have a challenge, and someone else who knows my weight and will know if I fail or succeed, and I have God's motivation and strength, by which all things are possible, and I am hopeful to be fighting this battle for the very last time.

Katie